Ceremony

    Socrates: (cont.) or to be a gentler (hemeros) and simpler (aploos) animal

    // 230α

    εἴτε ἡμερώτερόν τε καὶ ἁπλούστερον ζῷον

    //

    hot snow woman

    somewhere it’s christmas, but i’m here doing laundry
    we both know how dangerous that can be
    my favorite things to wash are sheets and towels
    they come out white-hot, bright and steamy clean
    and ready to be hung under this unseasonable sun

    so sincerely unmeaning for any meaning at all
    my simple chore, and not to drop or drip on them
    as i un-wring the nubby cotton yoga blanket
    disentangling from the rub of its late flood, to spread
    and pin it on the line, adjusting ends to dry evenly

    folding my prior load, i’ll tell you just what i find
    my daily yoga tops, lavender python, yes really
    sky blue, white puff, navy with golden stars, poly girly
    turquoise-violet mermaid scales and hippie daisies
    for yoga shorts, mens bamboo boxer-briefs, all black

    emblazoned with italian-style logo, pasti lokal
    for underwear, i’m mostly cotton, occasionally lace
    synthetic demi-nude or translucent net; pink pastel
    or robin’s egg with winking flowers and creamy camisoles
    i barely wear a bra; that’s fairly reflected here

    two oversized linen shirts, menswear, light blue
    pinstripes, for my free-flowing shade, or undyed natural
    two oversized soft flannel, menswear, blurry plaid
    my cozy-in at night, for when the wind blows colder
    their warmth imbued with an intense nostalgia

    loose pants of rayon blend, tie-dyed in earthy tones
    i buy these from a lady near our favorite resto
    sweets for the maskmaker, as village mothers often do
    he charms their socks off and gets us lightning deals
    i mend them into scarves when seams rag, and re-up yearly

    i fold it all, attending to the shape and size, to fit
    into created places on the shelf; it doesn’t spill over
    we don’t have too much; for every piece there is a tell
    the other morning a hornet was sleeping on a pillow
    and buzzing slushy, bristle or tickle, firecat feels real

    but i’m a snow woman today, or if i’m melting
    i’m doing what i do on any other day, heat swelting
    i’m touching and holding nothing that isn’t here
    and by the nothing that is or isn’t, who or where
    being beheld or leaving somewhat damp, unfolded

    //

    perverse
    like my uncle
    x Hot Frosty

    //

    🌒

    O sunrisen sand
    lit warm on a surfer
    for holistic kitchen
    on bent-knee receipt
    her despite respite
    libris libraque

    //

    Socrates: (cont.) whether my fortune is to be some beast (therion) even more many-twisted (polu + plekein) and inflamed (epituphomai) than Typhon

    // 230α

    εἴτε τι θηρίον ὂν τυγχάνω Τυφῶνος πολυπλοκώτερον καὶ μᾶλλον ἐπιτεθυμμένον

    //

    leaves like stars

    photo of a begonia plant in dirt with three six-pointed leaves in the frame, with speckled white patterning, deeper green veins, and reddish-brown fur around the edges, with red leaf undersides.

    leaves like stars

    for wonder gazers
    scrappy chasers
    a hot day, here

    the emerald belt
    for kept begonias
    weathering arms
    of atmosphere

    heart of Antarctica
    across the room
    blurry

    melting
    pinkish

    patient

    //

    selamat Natal 🌟

    //

    Socrates: (cont.) i examine not these but myself

    // 230α

    σκοπῶ οὐ ταῦτα ἀλλ᾽ ἐμαυτόν

    //

    black wing

    mirabilis volubilis
    in shaded speculation

    her open eye
    her slanted sine

    the wilting one
    the violeting

    the surface matte
    the silver bell

    oil drawn
    from olive well

    her shelter, solid
    green muscle

    //

    not sore anymore
    well and

    //

    Socrates: (cont.) which i was just now saying

    // 230α

    ὃ νυνδὴ ἔλεγον

    //

    those two

    today we mampir at the house of Pak Mangku
    his mother passed, so we bring beras, gula, kopi
    in my black linen blouse, my undulant parang
    sarung, my sober face, not quite smiling, leaving room
    for her; the orchids have bloomed, a white cow has died
    to follow, and a sherbet sky breaks chains at sunset
    swallowing a lavender storm; all in a day’s wok

    sometimes i fantasize about the afterlife
    bad habit; my sister and my desister here
    and here; but when i see the bulbuls and the tits
    the fine-feathered egrets’ flight for patchwork light to graze
    in full breeding plume, their eyes intently red
    i return to stanzas that rhyme, like those two
    memory washes the sawah; my season softer by it

    //

    this one

    //

    corvid solstish

    i saw a crow, but not a city crow
    a forest crow, gagak hutan, Corvus enca
    her smooth and perceptive, violet-black
    matte iridescence, flew over me, up to the green

    ravine; from there she turned her black eyes on me
    barely here, it was the longest day of the year
    a rain-soaked day; but the sun came out that morning
    to show her shadowing rainbow and the waterfall

    later, some kind of animal, taking a hot shower
    stars thread the clouds like icy pinpricks of rain
    legs still sore, reflection cooling skopein
    ornithologoi, a poet’s favorite color; yes, tilting

    //

    Socrates: (cont.) from which, saying farewell and letting these be, and being persuaded by the customary belief,

    // 230α

    ὅθεν δὴ χαίρειν ἐάσας ταῦτα, πειθόμενος δὲ τῷ νομιζομένῳ περὶ αὐτῶν

    //

    photo of a waterfall catching sunlight surrounded by lush green tropical forest emptying into a brownish pool and throwing up a gusty cloud of mist and flowing down around and over boulders and rocks.

    here //

    Socrates: (cont.) it appears to me really laughable, not yet knowing this, to examine (skopein) alien things (allotria)

    // 229ε

    γελοῖον δή μοι φαίνεται τοῦτο ἔτι ἀγνοοῦντα τὰ ἀλλότρια σκοπεῖν

    //

    the white rose

    i. lazy lying

    O love, and your elliptical necessity
    O body, where my hand should or shouldn’t be
    O pain, incongruous with poetry
    O tease, who didn’t even taste her vegan sushi

    and can’t you read your working girl is wired
    how thick her lines, how dense the verbal flex
    through tissue skin she moves for you like fire
    if beggars reach beyond the solar plex

    or if you crowny thorn her goldylocks
    then she could drag your cross by silken hem
    mantic romantic how you palmed her wrist
    and when you nearly slid it in, sweet bitter

    O yes, no, neither, both, if irony
    is logic how she leaves the dead country
    she only wants to be with you, for you, baby
    and how you need it, and how your penstrokes ask for it

    darling prevarication; but your him-hands
    give quaking earth, they land so serious
    and lazy lying on your big brass bed, and curious
    you have her on her back, hand where you said

    her wears a ring to be transcendent lay
    for texture fascinates her fingertips
    down to the valley, where she gives it all away
    hits harder when the moon falls on a Saturday

    //

    ii. the corsage

    my pulse is narrowing and turns the sky
    around this death, heart over air, to fly
    so cradled night, my infant, catching, fell
    for contact, striking, stroke indelible

    a wrist, a pin, the pale stem of a rose
    her point, round by my red hand and my right
    her subtle bite of blood at ivory jaw
    our trinity of sunbeam into sleep

    but here, i kiss the center, mouth for eye
    i taste it, as i take contested breath
    i turn it, making weighted what was white
    i let it fly, and earth will finish the matter

    //

    iii. air terjun

    on this island, there are many waterfalls
    come visit; then your tree trunk thighs will tremble
    and collapse from the steep trail of descent
    we seek her from the bottom, not the top

    don’t think about the arduous way back up
    the rising hell, and you will ache tomorrow
    but the future needs to take care of itself
    not like some infernal baby, wailing

    our path is not yet ruined by the trash
    yet discarded plastic has determined us
    our dirty fingernails pry it out and carry
    made little masters of unending refuse

    shaded by foliage as we approach
    the whiteout sound echoes off slippery slopes
    of mud-washed stone, grip held by cliffside roots
    and every footstep is precarious

    place focus, eyes on feet and hands on limb
    the green ravine her delving argument
    into this living hollow of the land
    the cave erasing history of water

    to where her falling flight consumes the air
    by roiling pool, our temporary here
    our momentary test, like ice for legs
    the same knees wobble forth to undergo her

    into the storm, the fight white vertical
    her standing soaking mountain-height of light
    defeats the gaze, sheer upright counter-thirst
    and roaring riddle; if you reach your arms to touch her

    her closer is the punishment of rain
    she smacks your skull and plasters down your hair
    her current pummeling your blinded form
    her action belongs to nobody

    but how she caught my breath and draws me near
    and how much love precipitous you take
    and how her emptying invokes my ghost interior
    and how i fail again, her force compelling my return

    //

    for Faded Love

    Socrates: (cont.) i am not yet able, according to the Delphic inscription (gramma), to know myself

    // 229ε

    οὐ δύναμαί πω κατὰ τὸ Δελφικὸν γράμμα γνῶναι ἐμαυτόν

    //

    for his Crush

    Socrates: (cont.) and the cause, O beloved, of this, is this

    // 229ε

    τὸ δὲ αἴτιον, ὦ φίλε, τούτου τόδε

    //

    a mystery

    to me
    isn’t growing
    on the wood slat ventillation
    of our teak cathedral sanctuary
    roundish, brownish, like raw dough
    it has been for three months or more
    the same size, surface of a dinner roll
    the same place, distance from center
    tender abstract seamless fungal
    too high for me to touch
    the holy infant
    of poetry

    //

    Socrates: (cont.) but for me, there is no leisure (schole) at all for these things

    // 229ε

    ἐμοὶ δὲ πρὸς αὐτὰ οὐδαμῶς ἐστι σχολή

    //

    photo of a pinkish landscape of grass and distant trees and shrubs with an almost silhouette of hanging vining

    pinkish //

    Socrates: (cont.) he will lack much leisure (schole) for himself

    // 229ε

    πολλῆς αὐτῷ σχολῆς δεήσει

    //

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