closer-up photo of a frothy wave at the beach, turquoise water transparently and completely having covered tan-brown and black speckled sand.

irretrievable //

telescopic texts (avec “mon oncle”) (1/x)

and did you ordinary women mock
in liturgies of utterances contained,
their lines wrought by time-keeping cant of yours?
and did you burst from bullied syllabub,
or clockwise stiffen into winter walls?
the musicals of ghosts, midwives, and angels
echo, hollow, down stone-cold corridors.
and did you consecrate the spectacle,
coupling one who spoke, no, no, not nothing,
a stand-in that you killed at playing ‘swords?
to quell the bubbling spring by means of rain,
or merely quote the Mother’s name in vain?

she has been up at nights, considering
how to un-kiss this devil-gendered thing

//

(original, telescopic)

the carrion

by Charles Baudelaire (original translation. cw: necrophilia.)

remember the object we saw, my soul
that summer morning, soft and sweet
at a twist in the path, a foul carrion
in its bed, seminated with pebbles

its legs in the air, as a woman aroused
hot and dripping with poisons
splayed in a cynical, nonchalant way
womb swollen with expirations

the sun shone fully on the decay
as to roast it, until just right
to return as millions to Nature’s noblesse
the cosmos she had contained

and heaven saw the magnificent carcass
as a blossoming flower
the stench was so potent, there on the grass
you thought you might collapse

the flies buzzing around the putrid belly
were issuing black batallions
of worms, pouring forth, pustulent
along the living tatters

the whole descended and rose like a wave
or sprayed in a sparkling spume
one could say the body, swole by murky breath
flourished in its inflation

and the world was rendered a stranger song
of watery flux and the wind
or grain that a winnower’s rhythmic geste
turns and churns in a basket

the shapes dissolved, no more than a dream
a sketching slow to arrive
on canvas forgot, where the artist derives
from memory alone

behind the rocks, an anxious bitch
watched us with angry eye
le squellette awaiting a chance to reclaim
the morsel that she had left

— and though you will be the same as this filth
as this horrible infection
stars of my eyes, sun of my nature
you, my angel, my passion!

yes! such will you be, O queen of graces
after the last sacraments
when you go, beneath fatted flowers and grasses
to moulder amongst the bones

then, O my beauty! say to the worm
who is eating you with his sex
i have kept the shape and essence divine
of my loves' decomposition!

//

waalaikumsalam 🌒

small town lullaby

the corpse
is a house, nobody
needs to enter

its gift
is apology
for anyone
not to be there

yet it nurses
its nibbling
worm


//

💀

mosquito milk

she caught you sucking
on her breast today,
mosquito

did you think
she was
your mother?

a poet makes
a pretty
terrible
mother
for
a mosquito


//

waalaikumsalam 🌓

snow white turning

has the twinkle ever
been for nothing
more than

to leave
a loving
artifact

to make
a deathless
hen,

whose faith outpaced
her season’s augury

this fruit is sticky
stretchy,
furious

its nectar possessed
of Lethean ambience

my arms are glittering
swans, my pillows
pur de lait, my eyes
are royal-blooded
blue navé, my dreams

are dialogues
of dolphins

how can she
believe the verbs
you writ, when all
you tender-left

were winterscape, or
sidereal tongue-
traps, of snowmen

that psychedelic night,
she sapped the wine
and stole the spade

howl-lit, she went
digging

in mud of your
decaying spring
for word-eaten
bodies

to meet
the gristled
marrow

to touch and leave
fingerprints
melting
on tongue

rose red grows
from a hollow bone

while moon-
shot belladonna
is kissing cousins

with bull-horned
hemlock, reckless
and honest

//

animal entertainment

they were watching us
as we ate our dinner

the grazers and
the gazing, directly

we felt
disconcerted,
on display

after some symposium
the resolution was

to recompose our stars
and watch them back

//

la poule noire sans doute

raven-wise, reposed
with shoulders drawn
her plumage welded closed
to element, like armor

buffeted by claps
and blows, beset
by quaggy flows, she was
more resolute than rain

roosters inamorato pecked
and disapprobed
her cocky, warlike ‘no’s
still Grace was stone, unmoved

fortress of mother earth
her body wholly was
the boulder fastly rolled
to staunch a secret planet

O chickening unheard
verb terminal
undead-end metaphor
catastrophe obscura

that hid, against her bald-
plucked breast, the titt-
tittering bavardage
des enfants geomantiques


//

photo of surf at the beach, foamy and frothy translucent turquoise water with beige, golden, black speckled sand and gravel and a worn down piece of off-white coral submerged in the sand.

frothy //

labor

the rain is heavy
sopping slapping shattering
goldfish dimension

water bristling
the cats in barbed corners
are hiding, hissing

nobody
shares shelter
in the emergency

i am under roof
imagining
a lazy woman


//

still

on the sawah
reeds resonate
as harmonies
inchoate

discord ebbs
and flows like
isothermal shadows
or disagreements
overheard from
a neighbor’s
tv show

the invectives
of detectives
sound like seagulls
hungry, jostling
for scraps
at the surface
of ocean

and
counter-
ocean

as hemispheric
currents under-
go reversals

as whale song
catalyzes
schools of squid

singing,
it does
not end

the answer
is still

( blowing

in the
wind )


//

selamat purnama 🌕

they have all been mothers' days

i can’t remember
what my skin was like
before i moved
to Indonesia

or if, back then
i ever examined
my own face
in the mirror

but if i had, my skin
would have been
blurred
like
powder makeup
young, dry
unburnt
and smudged
around the eyes

in this country
my skin is almost
always shiny
shining
blushed
amphibian
for some reason
or other, me
or the island
it is full
of almost
too much life

but it, my skin
is pale again
and my cheeks
and chin
are rounder

now, i look
many times a day
at my own face
in the mirror

and
all i see
is my grandmother

from a photograph
in sanguine greys
taken when she
was younger

and from
a recenter one

in springtime shades
of rose and ivory
carefully strewn
with flowers


//

dreamcatching

is your weaving procrastination or
bare art to chart the tempest of my heart
make me be making you become our all

is it wisdom when you step away from wood
the holding firm of it, its firmament
but temperamentally gossips with birds

is it deception that you tangle, home
of spider-silk as wordy work, anchored
by glittering images that come to know me

no pristine landscape catches stellar wings
earth shakes the boughs of quaking sun
scattering us as gibbering bats from ashes

airborne we’re hunting fireflies between
a melting Luna’s effulgent ice cream
dodging light-threaded night and Venus rising

i am assemblage channeled to be none
you are motion, savior of fitful sleep
the rhythmic tide unravelling its mooring

draw deeply down where one is one is one
fly home again wherefrom wind-woven sea
embroiders iridescent migrations

//

Wasalamu’alaikum 🌖✨

photo taken at night of black speckled and sparkling sand with a tide pool lined with bright golden light and reflecting black sky with other scattered lights, bright bits of scattered froth or debris, something bright green like light hitting leaves, and some wooden posts, with silhouettes of coastal detritus in the background.

souchong
by golden-limned
salt-watery night

//

how to watch the Eta Aquariids meteor shower

behold
pendulous drape
of cosmic cat

uncoil
the breath
where bodhisattva
sat

orangutan
persuaded
chimpanzee

let’s be
moving targets
together
baby


//

thanks for the heads up @Miraz💫

the letter B

a small stone stopped
me on the way

having forgotten &
being renamed

tear
in

the glass


//

insp. by “Three things, together”

Grace, again

an observation
about chickens

they point

(they understand)
when
(emphatically)
i point
(or wave)

(at something)

they (generally)
look where i point
(or wave)
(and not at my hand)

(always with some skepticism)

and then
(if they are in
a trusting mood)
they go there
(cautiously)

then i noticed

(Grace hatched
herself four wholly
unauthorized chicks
this week

a reminder that

Nature is
the cutest
antifascism)

the first thing they do
once they uncrumple
their tiny selves is

Grace pecks

(points)
(at something)

and they go
(too)
with their beaks

(pointing)

learning
what to eat

(where is
the pointing)

(i imagine)

so chickens
are pointers

(and)

we share
the esoteric principle
of pointing


//

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatu 🌖

prometheus over easy

there will be zeal
in your everyday, like
runny egg yolks
for breakfast

dubious
and golden


//

photo at the beach looking out at the turquoise water with a wave coming in to splash against a large volcanic black rock, and water being sucked back down from the tan-brown sand in frothy white curves.

bristled in the wave //