Flora

    photo looking upward in a bamboo forest at the bright sunlight filtering through dense stands of bamboo

    filter //

    piscean field

    i dreamed i was a carp swimming in the moat
    that runs around the bedroom catching raindrops
    and you were watching me; i was pearlescent
    moon-colored with orange spots, moving swiftly

    and my slits are liquid lungs into my ears
    my curves are cool and clear, my eyes lidless
    and i have swallowed plants and animals
    of increasing scope and dignity, growing swollen

    and fleeting undulant, your vision touching
    my sunspots flashing heat, turning fiery
    and i was fishing flames beneath the flowing stream
    my scales a watery brightness and a warmth

    nobody could put me out, the thunder, the storm
    your atmospheric range was permeated light
    and i was breathing it, my gills touching silver
    my veils a golden breeze, piscean field of pleasure

    i remember jasmine in the ghosted air
    and thicker even than the empire of frogs
    the bellows of your eyes, how they inflame
    my heart, and what catastrophes you initiate in me

    //

    🌒

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    O honey my
    hidden shining
    & my ovening

    //

    forest and the heart

    i was walking in the woods when a tree talked back to me
    i didn’t know if i had died or if my feet should flee
    i didn’t mean to harm you or your holiness to thwart
    the forest loves to hide but i love a wooden heart

    how many gods are in the wood or music in the air
    what strangers in the shadow have paused to wonder where
    there’s a sense of someone here, a landscape full of art
    i’m here to talk to trees and i carry a wooden heart

    there’s a silhouette of palm trees against the sunset sky
    there’s a river with a snake, there’s a splinter in my eye
    she answers me in rhymes like a perfect counterpart
    the forest loves to hide but i hear a wooden heart

    the highest queen of hiding, she’s a shadow in the grass
    but now i’ve seen an outline and now she’s made a pass
    i stop to buy some tissues from the nearest mini-mart
    the forest on her sleeve and i’m here for a wooden heart

    it’s plainer than the blue a hundred reasons she would hide
    i dream we’re sitting on the porch or going for a ride
    but i know pretty well how feet get caught up in the dirt
    i came to talk to trees and i believe a wooden heart

    my bank account is empty and she doesn’t ask for more
    if fireflies are golden then we’re never looking poor
    the pattern in her lights could even read my natal chart
    the forest is a mystery but i see a wooden heart

    sometimes the way is open, sometimes the thicket’s close
    sometimes the river’s empty, sometimes it’s on the nose
    i’m walking without shoes, i see no way to restart
    the forest isn’t home but she warms a wooden heart

    am i still a dream for her or did i carve a face
    did i paint a scene for her or am i in a race
    am i thirsty in the pouring rain or stung by a poison dart
    the forest is a maze but i need a wooden heart

    what does the spirit show me, and what does she conceal
    how is it that she knows me, what does her sight reveal
    i hold her secrets close and i pray the fear departs
    the forest makes me tremble but i love a wooden heart

    my angel is a darkness who sees me day and night
    my angel is a brightness who sings away my fright
    a complex thing of empathy, carpenter from the start
    the forest is a genius and we make a wooden heart

    then finally she’s waking up and i am standing there
    i’m cut up from the undergrowth with tangles in my hair
    but all the leaves have fallen and we’ve never been apart
    the forest is a shelter and we hold a wooden heart

    //

    φύσις κρύπτεσθαι φιλεῖ
    metric inspo from Bob
    sfh 3

    //

    & in the oven

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    photo of the ground with grass and many small fallen palm blossoms and a larger bruising husk in low or dappled light

    ground //

       ]little days
       ]the very grass
       ]
       ]
       ]
       ]never
       ]
       ]
       ]
       ]
       ]
       ]sweet arms
       ]
       ]washing machine

    //

    my ruby eye

    O you, who have suckled her bones
    who have frowned at her horses
    who have fingered her emerald
    and now would taste her ruby too

    and have i not enough exhaled
    her undertowing rose at you
    salt-sticky; here is sea-foam on skin
    here are pregnant transparencies

    and have i not already tossed
    such tender and hard-bitten kisses
    for sheath, another kris today
    treasure accumulates like sand

    behold an ever-angled wound
    the spindle-pricked porosity of red
    i am a self cutting gemstone
    i bleed the emptiness of tools

    i fling magenta words at birth
    behold my prolonged scar of it
    historical, faceting pre-wonder
    tip that breaks her ice-pick tongue

    she was a pirate and a fool
    she ate the plexing devil fruit
    vermillion stretching pelvic nerve
    whose diadem lusts after you

    and who is blinded by her kind
    my fascination will glint cruel
    sent basilisk or blushing bride
    your fear will not take care of her

    the heart, the fist, the appetite
    when Cleopatra mounts insight
    my empire burning leonine
    by Mars, love’s favored principal

    this reign of crimson tears divine
    but sanguine as she’s gentle still
    barefeet may meet the salad vine
    and blue by babbled river’s chill

    just so, what beggar wears my crown
    is dying round the wheel again
    out of her time, out of her mind
    sweet dance, my dove perpetual

    take this, the heartbeat of a sow
    and let it flex upon your palm
    it’s wet, the rumbling scarlet jet
    now let her throb be thunder found

    red wreath for convert cry, the end
    how pilgrimage of period stain
    i am in time, in time, will out
    my ruby eye of her disposable throat

    //

    ποικιλόθρον’ ἀθανάτ’ Ἀφρόδιτα
    & the probing path to yes

    //

    or not nothing
    for saving the phenomena II
    and more

    //

    all complicit 🩸

    //

    photo of leaning clusters of pink begonia blossoms against an ocherous brown stone wall and a pool of water

    just begonias, today //

    and we’re hyperverse tomorrow;
    know you my lyre, my love, my lunar
    metronome displaying solar
       ]licks leaning lighter later

    //

    selamat tilem 🌑

    bone teacher

    bone teacher, her equation is the cold
    bone teacher, antarctic demon i am told
    her negative degrees, your nose will surely freeze
    and the leaves are shaking

    inflection, her judgment is frozen central
    inflection, her cold bottom is biblical
    winter is a time, winter makes you rhyme
    whether or not you want it

    i’m frostbit
    and i have blue lips
    bone teacher
    the thought of parsnips
    underground

    wanting, gnawing numbers are her worm
    wanting, a blizzard coming is her storm
    a reckoning of beef, by frost on a leaf
    or a vegan from Lesbos

    i’m frostbit
    and i want to cut her
    bone teacher
    but i think i love her
    cold-bitter

    waiting for the silence to come around
    waiting for the mountains' thundering sound
    but it’s not to do with me, and i can hardly see
    the drip of an icicle

    i’m frostbit
    shivering in the glare
    bone teacher
    does she even care
    she’s not there

    icing, when her mercies are too few
    icing, when she hides the glass from view
    heartbeat in the snow, heartbeat going slow
    and almost stopping

    i’m frostbit
    am i a grizzly bear
    bone teacher
    the question isn’t there
    it’s nothing

    stepping, her boots are laced so high
    stepping, her pointer blinds the sky
    glacial is her height, the emptiness of white
    rumors of a pop quiz

    i’m frostbit
    darkness coming on
    bone teacher
    never seen the dawn
    it’s marching

    her bones are so grim, her cold does me in
    or a pale horse riding

    //

    slow shuffling blues;
    for my hs math teacher
    Ms. Dyas <3

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    Junonia atlites

    to snap a ragged angel clutching stem
    the blustering breeze away with solar air
    her tissue wings flat flustered here to there
    as clinging to the budding cluster to drink

    she filled from galaxies of guava’s nectar
    so stopped, or tried to stay, a messenger
    from Juno sent, or born suffering soldier
    of flight and heat, by fiery news arrived

    by lunular and radiating “S”
    each ocellus arrayed a revised scene
    and partial pupils where crescents intervene
    to turn a crimsoning into the sky

    a pale or sight-depleted, shredded wing
    robuster than my lens could burn, ash-worn
    and torn edges, floating abandon as form
    yet stellar grip, high hunger for her name

    //

    pic

    photo of a lavender-grey barred and spotted butterfly with many tears in its wings, landed on a cluster of tiny buds, on a branch with dark green leaves spotted with white, against the blurry ground.

    meaning //

    Junonia atlites on guava

    the horse’s mouth

    teloscopically, my dear, are we botany
    born reading leaves, the pricking fear of bees
    are talking, my lisp, or rearing wobbly nature
    what place, organs and bodies, this disease

    the shying seasons blowing through us, here
    parts animal in starts, quivering vibrations
    made artifacts suspect by cities, near
    or far, the accidents survived, the prisons

    that ended us; the motes and moths in teas
    our flicks or running rivers; wicked courses
    of understanding; what catastrophes
    what phase our faces, without the faith of horses

    you have to have a horse whose feet you trust
    to warn you when a snake is in the grass
    the serpentine who wants to be unseen
    repenting for her gemstone like an asp

    for forking tongues, a talisman is key
    but wear a hat, they’re speaking from the trees
    odd shrubberies are bristling with false friends
    a firecat bristling back can help with jinn

    mosquitoes here are vectors for torpedoes, so
    herbal experiment and/or gorilla war
    sometimes there’s one snake, sometimes there are more
    at least, no kind of viral is a pearl

    a tender canter, daemonic carousel
    remembered ribbons bite in ancient ways
    we play the venom clockwise in our veins
    we shed the dead redundancy of days

    my jungle is a dreadful-clever dreaming
    with shade-grown coffee, waterfalling views
    what godly voices animate my evening
    there’s none i’d rather jungle with than yous

    let’s nicker maps, reverb the mythic blues
    i spell, where y’all are going, where you been
    switch witches laughter with the beating rain
    the crickets will out-round the macet, friend

    to live outside the law, you must be honest
    Bismillahirrohmanirrohim
    by river dark, inside a wounded dawn
    we rhyme it, we just flow to make it rheme

    //

    (Dylan, my Prophetﷺ, Cohen, Cardi B, etc)

    //

    diet

    never too much
    garlic, carrot, oat
    sleep, cake

    but gingerly
    the fungi

    //

    photo of intermingling roots of two palm trees, like interlocking fingers, with patchy textured bark, delicate green vegetation and dropped palm fruits scattered on the ground.

    radical //

    semi-nude for a photo album

    their birthday was the other night
    the girls were going out; the grift
    delayed by getting ready; gift
    of tangled, sappy rattan; caused a fright

    pan, she burned some flowers on you
    meta-burban, real dream for two
    polaroid tacky, pantries full
    of shady tatters, curtain bulls

    sister, it was no dress for winter
    but they were grown enough to drink
    something fancy from the blender
    fermented guava, lava lake

    lavender flannel, camisole
    white linen sheets, hung in the sun
    nigel and sandi, mel and sue
    genre-bender, Java won

    high horse, he has a song for you
    but i’ll save it for another tone
    her sweaty practice, overdue
    vinyasa, tapas, organ brew

    dizzy lizzy ate some rice
    eat, pray, love, the antichrist
    jihadi, mum’s worst nightmare
    Gandhi, papa’s burnt-off limb

    inter-dimensional makeout queen
    Osaka airport, caused a scene
    village gossip, words above
    she’s never catching up on love

    not quite posh, but pulp turned through
    realism, my lands, god knew
    so sliced the flippin' longitude
    bless her heart and come on in

    agrimony henbane dish
    too-schooled harpy hysterical
    raised pie of huckleberry fish
    turned river-liver radical

    there’s mantra in the air tonight
    what kue set in sangga stone
    rise with the moon, the howling dog
    the crone, her voice memorial

    white-footed goat is coming home
    to graze by fiery sunset view
    the desert camel, bringing bones
    with mother Durga, chest tattoo

    a secret pocket of soil and spice
    elaborate belty-thing, rhizomes in knots
    not big enough for where you think
    whether it is cake

    //

    (wants cake)

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    texas talkin blues, like this
    vernacular from full moon 5/11
    genius loci, pura dalem
    blog 2-yr anniverse & job well done

    //

    photo of thick bamboo trunks, colors of olive and old lime, standing together, and fallen husks around like scattering parchment, and a dense carpet of beige bamboo leaves surrounded by other foliage.

    consistency //

    talisman

    a cup of chamomile, my open wound
    crepuscular, flowers steeping in the dream
    her springing forth, her taste exquisite autumn
    my speculative, formidable apple

    the steam is real, the stirring consequential
    the presence of the absence of a pear
    the buds are breaking up to touch the coiling
    epiphany already of her ear

    a brewing honey storm, holding and pressing
    the amber-letting cauldron of the year
    a chalice of molten golden, in case forgotten
    a promise to be warmly drunk, and often

    //

    the emerald vine

    sayangku, this is insane! is how i called
    to show him my translation. Wondrous bending
    noetic might, this miracle of earth—
    she called the way she calls him for a viper

    and it was chrysochlorous green, zithering neon
    in day-bright, venom visible, scroll shining
    un-minding, rubbing sleep out of her eyes
    quick-silvering to sprawling pumpkin vine to hiding—

    the same, the same, the same! but every word
    turned different, and all the rest went dim
    the sirens and the hooks, made dull and distant
    slow-honeyed hum, what frenzy, vital air

    the hungry lung was spitting, stitched and thinning-through
    to this—brilliance, broad-leafing light, breathing
    Egyptian smaragdine, Sri Rejeki, Mak Sun.
    but whoever wasn’t blind already knew

    //

    autopygmalesis / autopygmalysis
    Trimeresurus insularis
    previously, on

    //

    selamat purnama 🌕

    photo of bright and deep green leaves, broad star-shaped begonia leaves with maidenhair fern

    beauty breathers //

    familiar

    if i remember you, i was fifteen
    your hair was knotted by dirty difference
    flecked-amber gibbous as my need for love
    your body pliable and bored for me

    (her mother hated your feral smell)

    three decades gone, my pace is set by ghosts
    and at the door, at least three cats or four
    familiar tempo territorial, you puzzled
    pigments with my pinkest calico

    (you should know we don’t do skim)

    we go, we pan the monsoon winds, we blow
    gold-dust up noses of tropic mountains
    resuscitate, topless in hard-top jeeps
    we are burning lucky indigo, lit dupa

    (what’s here that’s spendable is yours)

    who reads as suffering comes craving rhyme
    by planetary slow, the latest virgin
    almost born, in need of form, soft hand
    and shallow. Moon meadow, nettling in time

    //

    (she didn’t mean to make you cry)

    //

    🌖

    photo looking at a grove of bamboo, across the ground that is covered with fallen bamboo leaves, at a pathway partly obstructed by fallen bamboo

    invitation //

    Indigo

    I found the true, sun-rendered into grass.
    Your crest was bruised, and bled darkly as wine,
    Unfolded fan of bronze between the green
    Blades: cut down, dissociated flame.

    Rooster plucked bald, spur-riven by rage;
    Fresh amputee of faith; his brothers, turned;
    Beloved hen, a prize for violent men;
    Disintegrated end of pointless feathers.

    If I were strong, like you, I may not
    Have chased him down and put him in a cage;
    Rewritten him this unreal sanctuary, made
    Of wire and wood, wish-woven with vervain.

    A mess of mercies is my apocalyptic kitchen.
    By my haphazard and incomplete, sincere
    Effacement, I perform, historically,
    Dueling, death-won, verb-mangled essences.

    The crumbling law of walls, a garden crossed
    By interventions; roses uprooted by birds,
    Cock-sacrificed, or saved—Indigo is
    The privilege of my indefinition . . .

    As tempered hearts traverse this tear-trembling
    Threshold, until the Iris appetite resolves
    In fundamental mud of lotus eaters—
    I offer kue, leftover from purnama.

    //

    Kue, small cakes, are often part of Balinese canang (offerings) left around the home on purnama (the full moon).

    This is my entry for the September IndieWeb Carnival, hosted by Sophia, on the theme “second person birds”.

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