Ceremony

    Socrates: (cont.) i examine not these but myself

    // 230α

    σκοπῶ οὐ ταῦτα ἀλλ᾽ ἐμαυτόν

    //

    black wing

    mirabilis volubilis
    in shaded speculation

    her open eye
    her slanted sine

    the wilting one
    the violeting

    the surface matte
    the silver bell

    oil drawn
    from olive well

    her shelter, solid
    green muscle

    //

    not sore anymore
    well and

    //

    Socrates: (cont.) which i was just now saying

    // 230α

    ὃ νυνδὴ ἔλεγον

    //

    those two

    today we mampir at the house of Pak Mangku
    his mother passed, so we bring beras, gula, kopi
    in my black linen blouse, my undulant parang
    sarung, my sober face, not quite smiling, leaving room
    for her; the orchids have bloomed, a white cow has died
    to follow, and a sherbet sky breaks chains at sunset
    swallowing a lavender storm; all in a day’s wok

    sometimes i fantasize about the afterlife
    bad habit; my sister and my desister here
    and here; but when i see the bulbuls and the tits
    the fine-feathered egrets’ flight for patchwork light to graze
    in full breeding plume, their eyes intently red
    i return to stanzas that rhyme, like those two
    memory washes the sawah; my season softer by it

    //

    this one

    //

    corvid solstish

    i saw a crow, but not a city crow
    a forest crow, gagak hutan, Corvus enca
    her smooth and perceptive, violet-black
    matte iridescence, flew over me, up to the green

    ravine; from there she turned her black eyes on me
    barely here, it was the longest day of the year
    a rain-soaked day; but the sun came out that morning
    to show her shadowing rainbow and the waterfall

    later, some kind of animal, taking a hot shower
    stars thread the clouds like icy pinpricks of rain
    legs still sore, reflection cooling skopein
    ornithologoi, a poet’s favorite color; yes, tilting

    //

    Socrates: (cont.) from which, saying farewell and letting these be, and being persuaded by the customary belief,

    // 230α

    ὅθεν δὴ χαίρειν ἐάσας ταῦτα, πειθόμενος δὲ τῷ νομιζομένῳ περὶ αὐτῶν

    //

    photo of a waterfall catching sunlight surrounded by lush green tropical forest emptying into a brownish pool and throwing up a gusty cloud of mist and flowing down around and over boulders and rocks.

    here //

    Socrates: (cont.) it appears to me really laughable, not yet knowing this, to examine (skopein) alien things (allotria)

    // 229ε

    γελοῖον δή μοι φαίνεται τοῦτο ἔτι ἀγνοοῦντα τὰ ἀλλότρια σκοπεῖν

    //

    the white rose

    i. lazy lying

    O love, and your elliptical necessity
    O body, where my hand should or shouldn’t be
    O pain, incongruous with poetry
    O tease, who didn’t even taste her vegan sushi

    and can’t you read your working girl is wired
    how thick her lines, how dense the verbal flex
    through tissue skin she moves for you like fire
    if beggars reach beyond the solar plex

    or if you crowny thorn her goldylocks
    then she could drag your cross by silken hem
    mantic romantic how you palmed her wrist
    and when you nearly slid it in, sweet bitter

    O yes, no, neither, both, if irony
    is logic how she leaves the dead country
    she only wants to be with you, for you, baby
    and how you need it, and how your penstrokes ask for it

    darling prevarication; but your him-hands
    give quaking earth, they land so serious
    and lazy lying on your big brass bed, and curious
    you have her on her back, hand where you said

    her wears a ring to be transcendent lay
    for texture fascinates her fingertips
    down to the valley, where she gives it all away
    hits harder when the moon falls on a Saturday

    //

    ii. the corsage

    my pulse is narrowing and turns the sky
    around this death, heart over air, to fly
    so cradled night, my infant, catching, fell
    for contact, striking, stroke indelible

    a wrist, a pin, the pale stem of a rose
    her point, round by my red hand and my right
    her subtle bite of blood at ivory jaw
    our trinity of sunbeam into sleep

    but here, i kiss the center, mouth for eye
    i taste it, as i take contested breath
    i turn it, making weighted what was white
    i let it fly, and earth will finish the matter

    //

    iii. air terjun

    on this island, there are many waterfalls
    come visit; then your tree trunk thighs will tremble
    and collapse from the steep trail of descent
    we seek her from the bottom, not the top

    don’t think about the arduous way back up
    the rising hell, and you will ache tomorrow
    but the future needs to take care of itself
    not like some infernal baby, wailing

    our path is not yet ruined by the trash
    yet discarded plastic has determined us
    our dirty fingernails pry it out and carry
    made little masters of unending refuse

    shaded by foliage as we approach
    the whiteout sound echoes off slippery slopes
    of mud-washed stone, grip held by cliffside roots
    and every footstep is precarious

    place focus, eyes on feet and hands on limb
    the green ravine her delving argument
    into this living hollow of the land
    the cave erasing history of water

    to where her falling flight consumes the air
    by roiling pool, our temporary here
    our momentary test, like ice for legs
    the same knees wobble forth to undergo her

    into the storm, the fight white vertical
    her standing soaking mountain-height of light
    defeats the gaze, sheer upright counter-thirst
    and roaring riddle; if you reach your arms to touch her

    her closer is the punishment of rain
    she smacks your skull and plasters down your hair
    her current pummeling your blinded form
    her action belongs to nobody

    but how she caught my breath and draws me near
    and how much love precipitous you take
    and how her emptying invokes my ghost interior
    and how i fail again, her force compelling my return

    //

    for Faded Love

    Socrates: (cont.) i am not yet able, according to the Delphic inscription (gramma), to know myself

    // 229ε

    οὐ δύναμαί πω κατὰ τὸ Δελφικὸν γράμμα γνῶναι ἐμαυτόν

    //

    for his Crush

    Socrates: (cont.) and the cause, O beloved, of this, is this

    // 229ε

    τὸ δὲ αἴτιον, ὦ φίλε, τούτου τόδε

    //

    a mystery

    to me
    isn’t growing
    on the wood slat ventillation
    of our teak cathedral sanctuary
    roundish, brownish, like raw dough
    it has been for three months or more
    the same size, surface of a dinner roll
    the same place, distance from center
    tender abstract seamless fungal
    too high for me to touch
    the holy infant
    of poetry

    //

    Socrates: (cont.) but for me, there is no leisure (schole) at all for these things

    // 229ε

    ἐμοὶ δὲ πρὸς αὐτὰ οὐδαμῶς ἐστι σχολή

    //

    photo of a pinkish landscape of grass and distant trees and shrubs with an almost silhouette of hanging vining

    pinkish //

    Socrates: (cont.) he will lack much leisure (schole) for himself

    // 229ε

    πολλῆς αὐτῷ σχολῆς δεήσει

    //

    in memory of Oreithyia

    a pearl exposed
    on the one-way road
    demands a rocky throne
    her tritone howling
    unhinging the jewelry jaw
    its hunger pretending
    its hook line preclaiming
    lip angled by whether
    lost inseam unseemly loss
    the weightlessness of stone

    //

    Socrates: (cont.) as if consulting (chraein) some kind of rustic (agroikos) wisdom

    // 229ε

    ἅτε ἀγροίκῳ τινὶ σοφίᾳ χρώμενος

    //

    my christmas tree

    by this typical jaw
    with four, six ellipses
    make up arboreal
    chipping ornaments
    icicles of twisting glass
    still if breathing

    needles if leaves
    it was in the drying
    she would spread her wings
    aroaming like memory
    almost belonging
    a sleeping forest

    //

    . . .

    //

    🌘

    Socrates: (cont.) if someone, distrusting these, will make each come nearer to a likening (eikos)

    // 229ε

    αἷς εἴ τις ἀπιστῶν προσβιβᾷ κατὰ τὸ εἰκὸς ἕκαστον

    //

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