Ceremony

    Phaedrus: good timing (kairos), it seems, that i happen to be barefoot; of course, you are always

    // 229a

    εἰς καιρόν, ὡς ἔοικεν, ἀνυπόδητος ὢν ἔτυχον: σὺ μὲν γὰρ δὴ ἀεί

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    the dancer

    when kindness is as kindness shows
    the son his mother’s body knows
    my eyes are from another place
    i smile at you to show my face

    the lessons of an artist’s life
    are gifts you rendered to his wife
    he’s gentle as the fallen rain
    what tokens we give back again

    a sudden street, a stranger island
    with traffic from a broken time
    he’s holding her, she’s not alone
    the dancer is already home

    let’s draw again the graceful scene
    in blouses pink, you met Christine
    if recognition makes you laugh
    he shows you with a photograph

    a feeling hewing to the bone
    her shapes are not unlike my own
    she’s holding me, she’s not alone
    the dancer is already home

    what light there was is in your eyes
    her singing voice was village wise
    he looks for her before sun sets
    and child again her own forgets

    and he will press your softened hands
    the gestured words, the closing fans
    and holding you, you’re not alone
    the dancer is already home

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    for Ibuk

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    selamat hari raya Galungan🌾

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    Socrates: turning aside there, let’s go along the Ilissus; and then we’ll sit down wherever it seems (doke-o) to be in a stillness (hesuchia).

    // 229a

    δεῦρ᾽ ἐκτραπόμενοι κατὰ τὸν Ἰλισὸν ἴωμεν, εἶτα ὅπου ἂν δόξῃ ἐν ἡσυχίᾳ καθιζησόμεθα

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    bone teacher

    bone teacher, her equation is the cold
    bone teacher, antarctic demon i am told
    her negative degrees, your nose will surely freeze
    and the leaves are shaking

    inflection, her judgment is frozen central
    inflection, her cold bottom is biblical
    winter is a time, winter makes you rhyme
    whether or not you want it

    i’m frostbit
    and i have blue lips
    bone teacher
    the thought of parsnips
    underground

    wanting, gnawing numbers are her worm
    wanting, a blizzard coming is her storm
    a reckoning of beef, by frost on a leaf
    or a vegan from Lesbos

    i’m frostbit
    and i want to cut her
    bone teacher
    but i think i love her
    cold-bitter

    waiting for the silence to come around
    waiting for the mountains' thundering sound
    but it’s not to do with me, and i can hardly see
    the drip of an icicle

    i’m frostbit
    shivering in the glare
    bone teacher
    does she even care
    she’s not there

    icing, when her mercies are too few
    icing, when she hides the glass from view
    heartbeat in the snow, heartbeat going slow
    and almost stopping

    i’m frostbit
    am i a grizzly bear
    bone teacher
    the question isn’t there
    it’s nothing

    stepping, her boots are laced so high
    stepping, her pointer blinds the sky
    glacial is her height, the emptiness of white
    rumors of a pop quiz

    i’m frostbit
    darkness coming on
    bone teacher
    never seen the dawn
    it’s marching

    her bones are so grim, her cold does me in
    or a pale horse riding

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    slow shuffling blues;
    for my hs math teacher
    Ms. Dyas <3

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    Phaedrus: (cont.) but where do you wish us to sit down and read? (anagignosko)

    // 228ε

    ἀλλὰ ποῦ δὴ βούλει καθιζόμενοι ἀναγνῶμεν;

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    Junonia atlites

    to snap a ragged angel clutching stem
    the blustering breeze away with solar air
    her tissue wings flat flustered here to there
    as clinging to the budding cluster to drink

    she filled from galaxies of guava’s nectar
    so stopped, or tried to stay, a messenger
    from Juno sent, or born suffering soldier
    of flight and heat, by fiery news arrived

    by lunular and radiating “S”
    each ocellus arrayed a revised scene
    and partial pupils where crescents intervene
    to turn a crimsoning into the sky

    a pale or sight-depleted, shredded wing
    robuster than my lens could burn, ash-worn
    and torn edges, floating abandon as form
    yet stellar grip, high hunger for her name

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    pic

    Phaedrus: (cont.) you’ve beaten me back (ekkrou-o) from my hope, O Socrates, that i would get to exercise (eggymnaz-o) on you

    // 228ε

    ἐκκέκρουκάς με ἐλπίδος, ὦ Σώκρατες, ἣν εἶχον ἐν σοὶ ὡς ἐγγυμνασόμενος

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    photo of a lavender-grey barred and spotted butterfly with many tears in its wings, landed on a cluster of tiny buds, on a branch with dark green leaves spotted with white, against the blurry ground.

    meaning //

    Junonia atlites on guava

    Phaedrus: Stop. (pau-o)

    // 228ε

    παῦε

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    this be a verse

    to razors and gashes
    and stabbings and worse

    no harm is intended
    and it’s for the best

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    🕊️

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    & pace Larkin

    Socrates: (cont.) but come on, show it

    // 228ε

    ἀλλ᾽ ἴθι δείκνυε

    triptych of the dog

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    a cicak dropped a souvenir on me
    yesterday, savasana; it was
    all happening, pure rejeki, a speck
    for playing dead; the simmering night, the sawah
    was fizzing and burping boggy chemistry

    the gamelan deliberated depth
    of banjar space, a soup of bronze and spittle

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    up i, cocks crowing death to rest, dark mind
    the cat was sick again, shit cleaned, cats fed
    the breath of rain, half-there, in vomit stepped
    scrubbed vinegar again, who made the bed
    i squinted past the dawn to wash a dish

    the load of towels, it was not a test
    the shape of chasing weather for a bone

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    and would the three of them have made a city—
    Lysias, Lysias, Lysias; he wasn’t there
    he wasn’t here, until bumbu for our sambal
    did rain down from the sky, and i said Lord
    i still deny that you’re an onion seller

    how practice held like density, as though
    svanasana could house the dog itself

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    🌒

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    see also Rabia Basri

    Socrates: (cont.) that while i love (phile-o) you completely, if Lysias too is present, it hasn’t seemed completely right (doke-o) to supply myself for you to practice on (emmeleta-o).

    // 228ε

    ὡς ἐγώ σε πάνυ μὲν φιλῶ, παρόντος δὲ καὶ Λυσίου, ἐμαυτόν σοι ἐμμελετᾶν παρέχειν οὐ πάνυ δέδοκται

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    the horse’s mouth

    teloscopically, my dear, are we botany
    born reading leaves, the pricking fear of bees
    are talking, my lisp, or rearing wobbly nature
    what place, organs and bodies, this disease

    the shying seasons blowing through us, here
    parts animal in starts, quivering vibrations
    made artifacts suspect by cities, near
    or far, the accidents survived, the prisons

    that ended us; the motes and moths in teas
    our flicks or running rivers; wicked courses
    of understanding; what catastrophes
    what phase our faces, without the faith of horses

    you have to have a horse whose feet you trust
    to warn you when a snake is in the grass
    the serpentine who wants to be unseen
    repenting for her gemstone like an asp

    for forking tongues, a talisman is key
    but wear a hat, they’re speaking from the trees
    odd shrubberies are bristling with false friends
    a firecat bristling back can help with jinn

    mosquitoes here are vectors for torpedoes, so
    herbal experiment and/or gorilla war
    sometimes there’s one snake, sometimes there are more
    at least, no kind of viral is a pearl

    a tender canter, daemonic carousel
    remembered ribbons bite in ancient ways
    we play the venom clockwise in our veins
    we shed the dead redundancy of days

    my jungle is a dreadful-clever dreaming
    with shade-grown coffee, waterfalling views
    what godly voices animate my evening
    there’s none i’d rather jungle with than yous

    let’s nicker maps, reverb the mythic blues
    i spell, where y’all are going, where you been
    switch witches laughter with the beating rain
    the crickets will out-round the macet, friend

    to live outside the law, you must be honest
    Bismillahirrohmanirrohim
    by river dark, inside a wounded dawn
    we rhyme it, we just flow to make it rheme

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    (Dylan, my Prophetﷺ, Cohen, Cardi B, etc)

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    diet

    never too much
    garlic, carrot, oat
    sleep, cake

    but gingerly
    the fungi

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    Socrates: (cont.) and if this is so, then think (dianoe-o) about me in this way—

    // 228δ

    εἰ δὲ τοῦτό ἐστιν, οὑτωσὶ διανοοῦ περὶ ἐμοῦ

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    Socrates: (cont.) for i guess that you are holding the speech (logos) itself.

    // 228δ

    τοπάζω γάρ σε ἔχειν τὸν λόγον αὐτόν

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    semi-nude for a photo album

    their birthday was the other night
    the girls were going out; the grift
    delayed by getting ready; gift
    of tangled, sappy rattan; caused a fright

    pan, she burned some flowers on you
    meta-burban, real dream for two
    polaroid tacky, pantries full
    of shady tatters, curtain bulls

    sister, it was no dress for winter
    but they were grown enough to drink
    something fancy from the blender
    fermented guava, lava lake

    lavender flannel, camisole
    white linen sheets, hung in the sun
    nigel and sandi, mel and sue
    genre-bender, Java won

    high horse, he has a song for you
    but i’ll save it for another tone
    her sweaty practice, overdue
    vinyasa, tapas, organ brew

    dizzy lizzy ate some rice
    eat, pray, love, the antichrist
    jihadi, mum’s worst nightmare
    Gandhi, papa’s burnt-off limb

    inter-dimensional makeout queen
    Osaka airport, caused a scene
    village gossip, words above
    she’s never catching up on love

    not quite posh, but pulp turned through
    realism, my lands, god knew
    so sliced the flippin' longitude
    bless her heart and come on in

    agrimony henbane dish
    too-schooled harpy hysterical
    raised pie of huckleberry fish
    turned river-liver radical

    there’s mantra in the air tonight
    what kue set in sangga stone
    rise with the moon, the howling dog
    the crone, her voice memorial

    white-footed goat is coming home
    to graze by fiery sunset view
    the desert camel, bringing bones
    with mother Durga, chest tattoo

    a secret pocket of soil and spice
    elaborate belty-thing, rhizomes in knots
    not big enough for where you think
    whether it is cake

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    (wants cake)

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    texas talkin blues, like this
    vernacular from full moon 5/11
    genius loci, pura dalem
    blog 2-yr anniverse & job well done

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    wildlife documentary //

    before Phaedrus can speak, Socrates makes an accusation wrapped inside a demand:

    if you would first disclose, O friend (philotes), what it is you have (echo / echis) in the left hand (aristeros) under your cloak.

    here, echeis could be either a conjugation of echo/echein (to have/hold - and this again) or the plural nominative/accusative declension of echis (viper). exchanging echis for echein yields the alternative translation,

    if you would first disclose, O friend, what vipers are in the left hand under your cloak.

    the common verb (to have/hold) makes more sense than the uncommon noun (vipers), in explicit context; or what Phaedrus calls the dianoia, i.e. the reduction of written speech to a kind of thought-content. but the local environs (poetic) of this echeis call for circumspection. on one side, there’s the sinister aristeros, “the left (hand)"; and on the other, the concealment, “under your cloak”. while the word spoken aloud makes the sound of a snake’s hissecheisss; its natural sound is concealed by its being written (technology).

    Socrates invokes the concealed, present absence, or possibility of snakes; as he demands revelation of—?

    English “echo” isn’t descended from echein (to have/hold), but from eche (sound). The best word built from echein is Aristotle’s entelecheia (en + telos + echein), translated as “having or holding itself in its end or completion”; neatly, a talisman is an external container for, or reminder of, entelecheia.

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    tea

    a perfect orb is held by accident
    the lip of cup, the curve of base, the lint

    a maker measures leaves but never takes
    the horizon, the fertile mountain-slope

    a home in hand is seasoning for leaves
    the dance, the steeping scene, the taste of rest

    as takers, we fish out the wayward ant
    to see if it can walk; it often does

    the wanderer needs shelter from the rain
    the angry, aching poverty of time

    i give the moon, i take the moon, she says
    who is the moon; composting circumspect

    the softest earthquake breaks a mirror still
    what tender for the heart of liquid sky

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    🌔

    the looper

    by grief of the dog in a blinded place
    he wanted her heart so he shadowed her face
    under cover of dawn when she wasn’t awake
    the silver misted or altering

    her eyelids open but the crescent stays closed
    pale beside her is a body or a suited pose
    her own lap empty as an uncut rose
    she brews coffee to keep him on his feet

    her towering heels after pups on a leash
    imposing the law with restless releases
    a child was limping with a wounded shin
    and the cry was loop loop looo

    so she stations herself against the daily race
    with a heart beat distant at a raggedy pace
    the private fingering of her pencilling hand
    gray ribbons or bloodlines away

    checking the door, securing a window
    turning a latch or locking a symbol
    the lupine circling would never know
    and his cry was loop loop looo

    smooth is the pack, the witless texture of skin
    painting the walls to skirt the outside in
    and the red is to run and the fast is the worst
    and sundown always coming closer

    blurred in the grease at the end of the day
    the charcoal prophet reflecting her phase
    the stillness or the animal dilation
    and her cry was loop loop looo

    loop loop loooooo
    ah-oooooo
    loop loop loooooo
    ah-oooooo

    //

    sfh 2

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