Socrates: (cont.) but O sistere (etairos), in the midst of words

// 230α

ἀτάρ ὦ ἑταῖρε μεταξὺ τῶν λόγων

//

etairos having settled unwell on “fellow”
a better translation arose; coinage
slobbery and stolen, fits amazing though!

yap

//

the goodliest

all unrestraint, all treats this island takes
by forest, mountain, mangrove or the beach
an altar lit with incense, sticky cakes
and coins, by slobbery foam, licks of brimstones
and muddy sticks and well-chewed-over bones
what rainbows churning in her tempest heart
what spilling cordials, bloody clots of earth, and all
may find rest in her furry green account

at restless earth-born sings a twilit face—
my valley for a storms! all to the tree!
and all to thee, the goodliest pan, O Pan—
of setting rings, pure nuncial—of place!

//

genius loci
ribbitere

//

🌓

Socrates: (cont.) by nature partaking in some part of what is divine and not feverish (a-tuphos)

// 230α

θείας τινὸς καὶ ἀτύφου μοίρας φύσει μετέχον

//

Wordplay in recent clauses turns (twists?) around τύφω (tuphein — to smoke, fill with smoke), the related τῦφος (tuphos — smoke, vapor, delusion, vanity, nonsense, fever), and the monster Typhon; as well as a slanted alternative between polu-plekein and a-ploos, to be either a many-twisted (e.g. complex) or an un-folded (i.e. simple) thing.

//

the seams of Saint Veronica

i was digging in the garden
i was rooting up a rose
dreaming of a buried bone
listening to my nose

i sewed your face into it
and you told me no
my unclean mystery
i’m tearing up tatami

do you need the dog in me
should i paw at your door
i was sniffing in a corner
now i’m passed out on the floor

i smell like cat piss
i’ve been running in the rain
what is your mercy for
a reckoning of typhons

i’m in a foreign country
and i never knew a law
i weep at every stranger
my long tongue and stupid jaw

you don’t even want it
until you’re dying
and you don’t look at me
i miss you only

wandering the streets at night
‘cause good girls love to roam
and if i lost my reason
would i find you at home

all your mixed signals
i chew them into air
your body is so visible
bones buried everywhere

the wooden cross you carry
the weight on trembling knees
how do you carry crosses
if you don’t believe in trees

why do i bury them
why am i depressed
why am i in your garden
my garden is a mess

six angry shades of rosary
and every count has thorns
and if i turn the light on
what takes a shadow’s form

and could i fight it
or am i just a bluff
my smoke at midnight
my nothing is enough

three verticals upon the hill
at dawn there’s five or more
their arms the work of windmills
guardians of metaphor

vermilion edges
my painterly lines
flashing iridescence
my greener stigmata

the seams of Saint Veronica
the tilt of her golden leaf
and if the suffering savior
had denied her that relief

beloved breaking
my faltered knowledge
she’s in the dirty street
the hounds of resurrection

//

(a song /
a howls)

//

my dog sings
and my gremlin
speaks in iambs
or

currently reading:
The Tempest

//

Socrates: (cont.) or to be a gentler (hemeros) and simpler (aploos) animal

// 230α

εἴτε ἡμερώτερόν τε καὶ ἁπλούστερον ζῷον

//

hot snow woman

somewhere it’s christmas, but i’m here doing laundry
we both know how dangerous that can be
my favorite things to wash are sheets and towels
they come out white-hot, bright and steamy clean
and ready to be hung under this unseasonable sun

so sincerely unmeaning for any meaning at all
my simple chore, and not to drop or drip on them
as i un-wring the nubby cotton yoga blanket
disentangling from the rub of its late flood, to spread
and pin it on the line, adjusting ends to dry evenly

folding my prior load, i’ll tell you just what i find
my daily yoga tops, lavender python, yes really
sky blue, white puff, navy with golden stars, poly girly
turquoise-violet mermaid scales and hippie daisies
for yoga shorts, mens bamboo boxer-briefs, all black

emblazoned with italian-style logo, pasti lokal
for underwear, i’m mostly cotton, occasionally lace
synthetic demi-nude or translucent net; pink pastel
or robin’s egg with winking flowers and creamy camisoles
i barely wear a bra; that’s fairly reflected here

two oversized linen shirts, menswear, light blue
pinstripes, for my free-flowing shade, or undyed natural
two oversized soft flannel, menswear, blurry plaid
my cozy-in at night, for when the wind blows colder
their warmth imbued with an intense nostalgia

loose pants of rayon blend, tie-dyed in earthy tones
i buy these from a lady near our favorite resto
sweets for the maskmaker, as village mothers often do
he charms their socks off and gets us lightning deals
i mend them into scarves when seams rag, and re-up yearly

i fold it all, attending to the shape and size, to fit
into created places on the shelf; it doesn’t spill over
we don’t have too much; for every piece there is a tell
the other morning a hornet was sleeping on a pillow
and buzzing slushy, bristle or tickle, firecat feels real

but i’m a snow woman today, or if i’m melting
i’m doing what i do on any other day, heat swelting
i’m touching and holding nothing that isn’t here
and by the nothing that is or isn’t, who or where
being beheld or leaving somewhat damp, unfolded

//

perverse
like my uncle
x Hot Frosty

//

🌒

O sunrisen sand
lit warm on a surfer
for holistic kitchen
on bent-knee receipt
her despite respite
libris libraque

//

Socrates: (cont.) whether my fortune is to be some beast (therion) even more many-twisted (polu + plekein) and inflamed (epituphomai) than Typhon

// 230α

εἴτε τι θηρίον ὂν τυγχάνω Τυφῶνος πολυπλοκώτερον καὶ μᾶλλον ἐπιτεθυμμένον

//

leaves like stars

photo of a begonia plant in dirt with three six-pointed leaves in the frame, with speckled white patterning, deeper green veins, and reddish-brown fur around the edges, with red leaf undersides.

leaves like stars

for wonder gazers
scrappy chasers
a hot day, here

the emerald belt
for kept begonias
weathering arms
of atmosphere

heart of Antarctica
across the room
blurry

melting
pinkish

patient

//

selamat Natal 🌟

//

Socrates: (cont.) i examine not these but myself

// 230α

σκοπῶ οὐ ταῦτα ἀλλ᾽ ἐμαυτόν

//

black wing

mirabilis volubilis
in shaded speculation

her open eye
her slanted sine

the wilting one
the violeting

the surface matte
the silver bell

oil drawn
from olive well

her shelter, solid
green muscle

//

not sore anymore
well and

//

Socrates: (cont.) which i was just now saying

// 230α

ὃ νυνδὴ ἔλεγον

//

those two

today we mampir at the house of Pak Mangku
his mother passed, so we bring beras, gula, kopi
in my black linen blouse, my undulant parang
sarung, my sober face, not quite smiling, leaving room
for her; the orchids have bloomed, a white cow has died
to follow, and a sherbet sky breaks chains at sunset
swallowing a lavender storm; all in a day’s wok

sometimes i fantasize about the afterlife
bad habit; my sister and my desister here
and here; but when i see the bulbuls and the tits
the fine-feathered egrets’ flight for patchwork light to graze
in full breeding plume, their eyes intently red
i return to stanzas that rhyme, like those two
memory washes the sawah; my season softer by it

//

this one

//

corvid solstish

i saw a crow, but not a city crow
a forest crow, gagak hutan, Corvus enca
her smooth and perceptive, violet-black
matte iridescence, flew over me, up to the green

ravine; from there she turned her black eyes on me
barely here, it was the longest day of the year
a rain-soaked day; but the sun came out that morning
to show her shadowing rainbow and the waterfall

later, some kind of animal, taking a hot shower
stars thread the clouds like icy pinpricks of rain
legs still sore, reflection cooling skopein
ornithologoi, a poet’s favorite color; yes, tilting

//

Socrates: (cont.) from which, saying farewell and letting these be, and being persuaded by the customary belief,

// 230α

ὅθεν δὴ χαίρειν ἐάσας ταῦτα, πειθόμενος δὲ τῷ νομιζομένῳ περὶ αὐτῶν

//

photo of a waterfall catching sunlight surrounded by lush green tropical forest emptying into a brownish pool and throwing up a gusty cloud of mist and flowing down around and over boulders and rocks.

here //

Socrates: (cont.) it appears to me really laughable, not yet knowing this, to examine (skopein) alien things (allotria)

// 229ε

γελοῖον δή μοι φαίνεται τοῦτο ἔτι ἀγνοοῦντα τὰ ἀλλότρια σκοπεῖν

//

the white rose

i. lazy lying

O love, and your elliptical necessity
O body, where my hand should or shouldn’t be
O pain, incongruous with poetry
O tease, who didn’t even taste her vegan sushi

and can’t you read your working girl is wired
how thick her lines, how dense the verbal flex
through tissue skin she moves for you like fire
if beggars reach beyond the solar plex

or if you crowny thorn her goldylocks
then she could drag your cross by silken hem
mantic romantic how you palmed her wrist
and when you nearly slid it in, sweet bitter

O yes, no, neither, both, if irony
is logic how she leaves the dead country
she only wants to be with you, for you, baby
and how you need it, and how your penstrokes ask for it

darling prevarication; but your him-hands
give quaking earth, they land so serious
and lazy lying on your big brass bed, and curious
you have her on her back, hand where you said

her wears a ring to be transcendent lay
for texture fascinates her fingertips
down to the valley, where she gives it all away
hits harder when the moon falls on a Saturday

//

ii. the corsage

my pulse is narrowing and turns the sky
around this death, heart over air, to fly
so cradled night, my infant, catching, fell
for contact, striking, stroke indelible

a wrist, a pin, the pale stem of a rose
her point, round by my red hand and my right
her subtle bite of blood at ivory jaw
our trinity of sunbeam into sleep

but here, i kiss the center, mouth for eye
i taste it, as i take contested breath
i turn it, making weighted what was white
i let it fly, and earth will finish the matter

//

iii. air terjun

on this island, there are many waterfalls
come visit; then your tree trunk thighs will tremble
and collapse from the steep trail of descent
we seek her from the bottom, not the top

don’t think about the arduous way back up
the rising hell, and you will ache tomorrow
but the future needs to take care of itself
not like some infernal baby, wailing

our path is not yet ruined by the trash
yet discarded plastic has determined us
our dirty fingernails pry it out and carry
made little masters of unending refuse

shaded by foliage as we approach
the whiteout sound echoes off slippery slopes
of mud-washed stone, grip held by cliffside roots
and every footstep is precarious

place focus, eyes on feet and hands on limb
the green ravine her delving argument
into this living hollow of the land
the cave erasing history of water

to where her falling flight consumes the air
by roiling pool, our temporary here
our momentary test, like ice for legs
the same knees wobble forth to undergo her

into the storm, the fight white vertical
her standing soaking mountain-height of light
defeats the gaze, sheer upright counter-thirst
and roaring riddle; if you reach your arms to touch her

her closer is the punishment of rain
she smacks your skull and plasters down your hair
her current pummeling your blinded form
her action belongs to nobody

but how she caught my breath and draws me near
and how much love precipitous you take
and how her emptying invokes my ghost interior
and how i fail again, her force compelling my return

//

for Faded Love

Socrates: (cont.) i am not yet able, according to the Delphic inscription (gramma), to know myself

// 229ε

οὐ δύναμαί πω κατὰ τὸ Δελφικὸν γράμμα γνῶναι ἐμαυτόν

//

for his Crush

Socrates: (cont.) and the cause, O beloved, of this, is this

// 229ε

τὸ δὲ αἴτιον, ὦ φίλε, τούτου τόδε

//