Verses/Curses

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    we visited your grave the other day
    how’s that thought for you?
    Æ went there to kiss the sky

    because a chariot
    is life’s emancipation of
    the written word

    //

    a chariot is

    reply to Isthmian I, via Phaedrus 227β

    //

    a chariot is artifact entombed

    beneath packed sediment

    an imprint on the earth

    of acts not of the earth

    sightless as solitude

    lifeless as time itself

    rotting perpetual

    vehicle disposed

    it falls apart


    a chariot is

    impervious

    to crying


    a chariot is a paragraph

    about ancient technology

    symbols illuminated by

    old photos from museums

    shaded settings in relief

    straight lines on pregnant-bellied vases

    fragments of singed and tattered verse

    reasons described almost

    as spatial motion re-constructed

    of kingships and bloodline races

    past endings to beginnings of

    gods animals and man

    words used as tools

    each one to fix and justify

    as evidentiary groping at

    a world of human things

    we still don’t know


    a chariot is an easy gift

    against a multitude

    of horses


           the machines we used to get

    from place of rest to planet mars were splendid

    magnificent creatures in their own

                    golden-

                    ratioed

                    grammars

    and dragons that took hold of drivers' eyes


    they thought the wind but caught to ride

    a flaming sword instead between her thighs

    maidens of modern mythologies arrived

    on cliffside edges wearing white

                    translucent coats

                    arousal com-

                    partmentalized

    to celebrate new body parts cognized


    the jewel-tones of her lacquered toes

    the scent of ozone taste

    of toxic fizz behind

    her sucking nose

    her mouth disclosed

    she swallows apples licks

    a rose the absolute

    glory hallelujah

    ravenous grows

    vulva exposed for clicks

    each flick a seed she sows

    from echoes loaded lead

    her rainbows red as victory


    she was the counting down to blasting off

    she was four hundred thousand horses yoked

    by arc of axel angel burnt tendrils

    smoke billows over rocky rough terrain

    past battlefields and nations past

    her recent childhood and

    arsenic smile

    their eyes went to

              her nippled curves and angles

              her thorough flexibility

              her starry nights and spangles

              her lashes cruelly clawed

              her pussies pawed

              and oh how they

              to her with her and of

              her came

    as realism

    inscribed by god

    rendered maidens un-made

    oiled python sheen of ageless skin

    she was the beauty left in violence

    they were materials for war


    sapphire eyes emerald or amethyst

    you chose the crystal the correction and

    the facets for

    some child in Africa

    was orphaned by each armored scale to feed

    her un-weaned toddler burger meat

    ( at least the blacks buried

    and did not eat

    their very

    fathers


    a chariot is

    from-dust-

    arisen life transcribed )

    annunciations posted inter-angel

    a holy home a web apart

    filters of pale ethereality

    content implicitly divorced

    from earth’s divided continent

    baptismal diamantine written

    laws skinlessly conceived that we

    may find and hold as work of art

    your child’s hunger as forgiven


    a chariot is

              already cleansed of blood it is

              excerpted rage it is

              brave forms we made

              from partial purpose or

              how to make pure

    a brilliant woman true to life

    but honestly a whore


    a chariot is what you drive to get

    to work your nightmares harnessed by

    engines of piston pretenses

    at likely sentences


    a chariot is nothingness herself

    but full of manliness

    the games we play when we

    make love in light of day

    driving endlessly divine

    at origins as orifices flying


    a chariot is

    a summary

    of dying


    //

    selamat purnama 🌕

    3 cats

    //

    Lalah loves nothing better than to get
    her cat smell all over a freshly laundered
    human and then go and scratch some wood

    //

    meanwhile Ismail
    is trying to puke
    something unwanted up

    //

    Sri Rejeki
    gets scary
    after dark

    //

    body’s most wondrous lesson was

    turning raw wounds into desire

    as ripening longing to be eaten

    as eyes longing to see and be open

    //

    broken machine of tentacles and teeth

    war is what monsters are and what they do

    monsters are monsters at war with monsters

    useless becomes another name for peace

    //

    Assalamu alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh 🌖

    marigolds

    what a week to take vacation

    some time to recompose

    to get back from the deadness

    questions that i never chose


    my instrument is alien

    my hands remote-controlled

    i cannot see my own two feet

    the way is lined with marigolds


    i have no numbers to report

    no news in a ghost town

    there is no story to be told

    the wind already took it down


    go diving in the deadness

    go breathing in the deep

    go dancing in the marigolds

    but never fall asleep


    what a day to wade back in again

    the sunlit flowers cold

    what a way to chase the day again

    to watch the underworld unfold


    //

    a dream

    a dream

    swimming

    diving under

    taking a deep breath to do it

    not knowing when i would be coming up for air or knowing it was never

    //

    our exercise as exorcism of time —

    the oddly-staggered rhyme leaves bruises

    on buds stringently-steeped, the undisclosed

    grays of grass groped in dark of morning that

    took hold as roots in midnight, not knowing color

    not knowing how seemly to be in sun —

    steps right into the rhythm of blinding fire

    this prism of shadows is highways home, revealed

    in daylight’s reconciliation with desire

    //

    Selamat Idulfitri, Eid mubarak, blessed Eid to those who observe. 

    Alhamdulillahirabbil’alameen. 🌙

    //

    Eve’s ultimatum.

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    Do you see yourself (in his mirror) as

    The summarized insanity of Adam?

    Your heart is his gateway to the garden.

    Be probable, or be perennial.

    //

    Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatu. 🌔

    Notes on techne.

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    There is no eros in technology.

    (Technology is anti-erotic,

    Ending in the endlessness of desire.)

    Techne is the technology of Allah.

    (Techne is Al-Khaliq, Al-Bari, Al-Musawwir.

    Eros is Ar-Rahman, Ar-Raheem.)

    Poetry is erotic techne.

    (The Qur’an is poetry of poetry.

    The basmala —

    Bismillah hir rahman nir raheem

    By the Name of Allah, Ar-Rahman, Ar-Raheem

    — is the poet’s seed.

    The poet of poets is the Prophet,

    Recollection as Self-conservation.)

    The stranger (X) is the poet as lover.

    Thoth is the poet as technician.

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    Phaedrus is a (the) passion.

    //

    Prayer becomes mantra

    And we are taken for a ride

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    photo of a beach with velvety white foam surf on stony silvery-greenish sea, with choppy grey clouds in the sky, and black and golden sand left by the waves in a layered and woven pattern.

    her place, her body,

    her ecosystem

    the things you took are empty, cast-off and
    abandoned spells, porcelain and wooden shells,
    remnants of oceans past and absent wonder —
    tombs wherein she gave birth, by way of earth
    to visions that unfold, un-helled, in dark
    of pockets, moon-mothered, saturn-supressed
    and mars-propelled past deeper houses that
    she’ll build, nightmares of sword-swallowing flesh
    without a bone, without a government,
    letters of constitutions burned, laundered
    in surf, your teeth, your plastic handicaps,
    your non-fungible bird, your poems unheard
    through algorithmic feats of isolation —
    when all she ever wanted was (your heart, stirred)
    for one watery moment to be the law
    in her place, her body, her ecosystem

    //

    Ismail

    it looked like neon green beans, to my eyes—
    the sorry viper he regurgitated
    before my sweeping feet—as i, bent low
    examined finger-lengths of body, gnawed 

    in pieces, coated with digestive slime
    and barely small enough to swallow; so
    his coddled bite could make a stunning gift
    from serpent suffering, knowledge obtained:

    our little life would never not be strung
    by line, each day a hundred unseen times
    between the drunken swagger and the lap
    his cradled comfort loving-limp in mine

    that we would match white tooth, pink gum with death
    and valor make more holy than satiation

    //

    Selamat purnama 🌕

    Of time. //

    This was, in fact
    The creation
    Of the human —
    The first ape who took
    A swing and
    Hacked off a piece of God. (It was

    As always

    A piece of herself.) It was also
    The invention of writing.

    Logos descends from a (golden) lutung
    Justice from the gentle orangutan
    Guerrilla from gorilla (forever Dian)
    And monkey business from a macaque.

    Let us become primate and
    Undo the butchery of time.

    //

    Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatu. 🌔

    Skin soft and worn like igneous sand into

    Her open psalm, they one lunation spent

    As sounding bodies, soldiering the fast.

    Blessed Ramadan to those who observe.🌙

    And then we were darkness comprised of crickets,

    Resident textures of stars, witness to

    Unbound interiors, and delivered by

    The same face-dispersing name as ever.

    Y’all were louder than the chickens today —

    But no hard feelings. Just measured words, and patient

    Preening to wax away the feathered nerve.

    Soft clucks will mend, with flock tucked-in, the hearts

    Of beleaguered and yet good-natured birds.

    Half-light sheds taste on full insanity;

    Pale lemon slice atop smoked opium tea.

    🌓

    The apps forecasted silence, now tonight

    The sky brings thunder. Hurricane or drought,

    Sheer element’s beyond us, but not quite:

    To make it rain, just leave the laundry out.

    “Why won’t you sing me a song?

    I miss your voice.”

    (I love your voice.)

    “Everyone else’s voice is a cartoon

    Compared to yours.”

    //

    “Why are you always why why why?”

    “Because I’m your why why wife.“

    //

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