Birds

    fast flight

    in the smudged aftermath of a hijacked plane
    a bird sits in wonder
    at the swift

    heart

    after so fast years
    her beat so hard believing in
    so locked in by the loaded spring
    like a poem punched out through the windowpane

    //

    the inward prospect of a delta

    once upon the oceans day an open secret rode forth
    enrobed in sheer sunsets and sunrises to say
    it is always and regardless of the weather okay
    to not be okay on a winged word

    she said in my opinion like roses aflame
    poetry is never okay
    poetry is the doing deed
    poetry is a metaphor for the mishap

    and it might have worked but that beachgoers assumed
    she plied postcards for the impossible
    well she spoke quietly to her own heart
    ive seen worse ways to circumnavigate this black earth

    //

    🌔

    //

    Halcyon cyanoventris
    seems nesting nearby
    very loud
    and yet so blue

    omg the genealogy of OK
    cries out
    via improbable speech
    babel bobber bauble bubble

    //

    inhuman allusion (where)

    in shredded shadow hums her corners beastly nerve
    end-hounding at the anklets of my wandering
    by prowling tigers milk and heat evisceral

    cuts lip to tongue amnesiacs re-hysteried word
    stalks fear in what like a magician i have bound
    blush turns like a trick pony shes ground me into

    and if there was a choice that voice has been erased
    thigh-hollows skittering rush from goose-flesh alter-flight
    laughterless laugh to pique the predatory mask

    high valleys ridges brimming overrun of rage
    down slouching bowels round rapt plum of panic like
    the sparrow silent as a fork in my ribcage

    and somewhere in this feckled wilderness her heart
    is pounding proud and naked by the rivers dark
    on the doubled drums of gods anarchic metaphor

    //

    warm to a thremma

    //

    adaddy (of lies)

    she sings full coverage seashells for sirens
    on oceans stews of roiling fatted wine
    she forks her sunset locks for nobody
    her cockled chains abreast the silvered brine

    she quacks and its a salty bouillabaisse
    a diddys rouille on croutons midnight crime
    she lays to bed adaddy of earthquakes
    her morning simmering the sky star-peppered

    //

    lemon & roses

    //

    🌘

    special delivery

    smooth now, that rough magic
    periscopic tragic midnight lookout

    pale arms out arctic like an exiled
    penguin into the nameless city

    coping, cold, gauze in a sand storm
    laron flicker in the mighty dust

    a turning ember, hot
    spark-caught, gold-litter

    in the spider web
    spanning a rattan lamp shade

    my one fish, two fish
    her peacock greenish-black or blue

    the switch, dangling
    sarcophagus

    so dead; quothe the neon miracle
    off-gassing meatlight; or Lalah

    pink, with only enough instinct
    to kill and never eat, my baby, yes;

    deveining ribbons in the snow, scrubbed
    scrubbing, awash in the darkroom; or

    backstage, up rusty rungs, like icicles; blanket
    of rags, pocket of candy-wrapped pills; she goes

    like gamelan trancing crickets at the cross
    by tilem, smoke of incense over the sawah

    //

    new years 2026

    i witness your erosion through the glass
    my history disappearing by the hour
    and snow consumes to whiteout; i am cold
    turned witless by distance and disbelief

    and there are no more familiar houses, faces
    are spreading, thinning, greying, pale, the young
    mere vanishing into the adult flood, like
    we didn’t want any of it

    the cruiseliner is sinking into sand
    nobody made the call, nevertheless
    it’s all you ever say; whoever has a camel
    hard fast to roll the tents and carry it

    how do you chase your longing through the dunes
    and did her caravan leave any trace
    or do you doubt if she was ever there
    or do you see her in the doe, the goat, the raven

    do you become her in the cursive carved
    by thirst, the desert bridegroom winding through
    until you haunt the edges of their encampment
    inhuman as the hajj, kin to al-Shanfara

    locals popping-off begin at dusk
    explosions quickening unevenly
    as child-sized rockets into midnight, when at once
    fireworks engulf the island, terrifying animals

    i turn a light on for the chickens
    Black Ajax has fallen out of his black tree
    he gibbers darkly as he hobbles toward me
    the light, a blacker perch; gibbering, i walk him through it

    //

    selamat tahun baru🥂

    //

    our chickens are
    most junglefowl
    we don’t fight them
    as, with cocks, is done
    but they are fighters

    //

    black wing

    mirabilis volubilis
    in shaded speculation

    her open eye
    her slanted sine

    the wilting one
    the violeting

    the surface matte
    the silver bell

    oil drawn
    from olive well

    her shelter, solid
    green muscle

    //

    not sore anymore
    well and

    //

    those two

    today we mampir at the house of Pak Mangku
    his mother passed, so we bring beras, gula, kopi
    in my black linen blouse, my undulant parang
    sarung, my sober face, not quite smiling, leaving room
    for her; the orchids have bloomed, a white cow has died
    to follow, and a sherbet sky breaks chains at sunset
    swallowing a lavender storm; all in a day’s wok

    sometimes i fantasize about the afterlife
    bad habit; my sister and my desister here
    and here; but when i see the bulbuls and the tits
    the fine-feathered egrets’ flight for patchwork light to graze
    in full breeding plume, their eyes intently red
    i return to stanzas that rhyme, like those two
    memory washes the sawah; my season softer by it

    //

    this one

    //

    corvid solstish

    i saw a crow, but not a city crow
    a forest crow, gagak hutan, Corvus enca
    her smooth and perceptive, violet-black
    matte iridescence, flew over me, up to the green

    ravine; from there she turned her black eyes on me
    barely here, it was the longest day of the year
    a rain-soaked day; but the sun came out that morning
    to show her shadowing rainbow and the waterfall

    later, some kind of animal, taking a hot shower
    stars thread the clouds like icy pinpricks of rain
    legs still sore, reflection cooling skopein
    ornithologoi, a poet’s favorite color; yes, tilting

    //

    anywhere but poppies

    it’s there
    her pane of a window
    passing passages

    the passing offer to carry
    ten thousand atomic lighters
    black specks on a braid of challah

    or liberate sweet nappers proper
    a chilli-laced hotpot, shiitakis, bok choy
    garlic, in the valley of compost boxes

    loose her transportive reliquaries, poultices
    dank delicious opacity compressed of air
    silkworms for the mundane pocket

    warm pillow for docket signifiers
    fingertips heavy with tawny heads
    inky notations with nowhere there

    to fly, but into the measure, slightly high
    pitched on a dry stone wall, for her
    a pinkish reddish hazy third, with leaves

    to breathe, past purple on the milky way
    eclipse, her eyelid, her lippy friend
    seamless tracing moving core

    //

    🌗

    photo of a grove of palm trees with sunlight hitting the leaves in an illuminated diagonal expression, with a high and distant bird accidentally in the frame

    sharps & feathers //

    receipt

    lemons limes
    Trojan War
    hijab silken
    breeze woken
    slant pigeon
    red of wing
    golden floor
    keepsake for
    her lioness
    hijab burning
    pulses turning
    nostos yearning
    ]
    ]
    ]
    ]
    method ender
    plete returning
    tender deliver
    by river liver
    taste radiant
    of summer

    //

    other things said:
    Hades?

    //

    for simple
    yes, and
    or

    Achaean horse
    & canto II

    //

    my ruby eye

    O you, who have suckled her bones
    who have frowned at her horses
    who have fingered her emerald
    and now would taste her ruby too

    and have i not enough exhaled
    her undertowing rose at you
    salt-sticky; here is sea-foam on skin
    here are pregnant transparencies

    and have i not already tossed
    such tender and hard-bitten kisses
    for sheath, another kris today
    treasure accumulates like sand

    behold an ever-angled wound
    the spindle-pricked porosity of red
    i am a self cutting gemstone
    i bleed the emptiness of tools

    i fling magenta words at birth
    behold my prolonged scar of it
    historical, faceting pre-wonder
    tip that breaks her ice-pick tongue

    she was a pirate and a fool
    she ate the plexing devil fruit
    vermillion stretching pelvic nerve
    whose diadem lusts after you

    and who is blinded by her kind
    my fascination will glint cruel
    sent basilisk or blushing bride
    your fear will not take care of her

    the heart, the fist, the appetite
    when Cleopatra mounts insight
    my empire burning leonine
    by Mars, love’s favored principal

    this reign of crimson tears divine
    but sanguine as she’s gentle still
    barefeet may meet the salad vine
    and blue by babbled river’s chill

    just so, what beggar wears my crown
    is dying round the wheel again
    out of her time, out of her mind
    sweet dance, my dove perpetual

    take this, the heartbeat of a sow
    and let it flex upon your palm
    it’s wet, the rumbling scarlet jet
    now let her throb be thunder found

    red wreath for convert cry, the end
    how pilgrimage of period stain
    i am in time, in time, will out
    my ruby eye of her disposable throat

    //

    ποικιλόθρον’ ἀθανάτ’ Ἀφρόδιτα
    & the probing path to yes

    //

    or not nothing
    for saving the phenomena II
    and more

    //

    all complicit 🩸

    //

    this be a verse

    to razors and gashes
    and stabbings and worse

    no harm is intended
    and it’s for the best

    //

    🕊️

    //

    & pace Larkin

    semi-nude for a photo album

    their birthday was the other night
    the girls were going out; the grift
    delayed by getting ready; gift
    of tangled, sappy rattan; caused a fright

    pan, she burned some flowers on you
    meta-burban, real dream for two
    polaroid tacky, pantries full
    of shady tatters, curtain bulls

    sister, it was no dress for winter
    but they were grown enough to drink
    something fancy from the blender
    fermented guava, lava lake

    lavender flannel, camisole
    white linen sheets, hung in the sun
    nigel and sandi, mel and sue
    genre-bender, Java won

    high horse, he has a song for you
    but i’ll save it for another tone
    her sweaty practice, overdue
    vinyasa, tapas, organ brew

    dizzy lizzy ate some rice
    eat, pray, love, the antichrist
    jihadi, mum’s worst nightmare
    Gandhi, papa’s burnt-off limb

    inter-dimensional makeout queen
    Osaka airport, caused a scene
    village gossip, words above
    she’s never catching up on love

    not quite posh, but pulp turned through
    realism, my lands, god knew
    so sliced the flippin' longitude
    bless her heart and come on in

    agrimony henbane dish
    too-schooled harpy hysterical
    raised pie of huckleberry fish
    turned river-liver radical

    there’s mantra in the air tonight
    what kue set in sangga stone
    rise with the moon, the howling dog
    the crone, her voice memorial

    white-footed goat is coming home
    to graze by fiery sunset view
    the desert camel, bringing bones
    with mother Durga, chest tattoo

    a secret pocket of soil and spice
    elaborate belty-thing, rhizomes in knots
    not big enough for where you think
    whether it is cake

    //

    (wants cake)

    //

    texas talkin blues, like this
    vernacular from full moon 5/11
    genius loci, pura dalem
    blog 2-yr anniverse & job well done

    //

    Needleworker

    Pierce me once—the crying; pierce me twice—
     The dying; pierce me thrice—my laughing tomb:
    This quivering feline skin, some kind of lark,
     Sharp noise, felt aerial, fled human wound.
    O Queequeg, Lucy’s love, my Nobody!
     Unmake ambergris soufflé to scrap and salt;
    Pets, lapping shattered tiramisu, whet
     Our mongrel tongues; embroidering the asp.
    Bull-revelry, before we dance the waltz?
     Your sutra swans around my ichthyan lisp,
    To charm the vipers out—that feather in
     Your bonnet inks my tapestry with bone.
    I move to tiger with you on the cusp
     Of animality, that golden-threaded throne.

    //

    🌘

    Indigo

    I found the true, sun-rendered into grass.
    Your crest was bruised, and bled darkly as wine,
    Unfolded fan of bronze between the green
    Blades: cut down, dissociated flame.

    Rooster plucked bald, spur-riven by rage;
    Fresh amputee of faith; his brothers, turned;
    Beloved hen, a prize for violent men;
    Disintegrated end of pointless feathers.

    If I were strong, like you, I may not
    Have chased him down and put him in a cage;
    Rewritten him this unreal sanctuary, made
    Of wire and wood, wish-woven with vervain.

    A mess of mercies is my apocalyptic kitchen.
    By my haphazard and incomplete, sincere
    Effacement, I perform, historically,
    Dueling, death-won, verb-mangled essences.

    The crumbling law of walls, a garden crossed
    By interventions; roses uprooted by birds,
    Cock-sacrificed, or saved—Indigo is
    The privilege of my indefinition . . .

    As tempered hearts traverse this tear-trembling
    Threshold, until the Iris appetite resolves
    In fundamental mud of lotus eaters—
    I offer kue, leftover from purnama.

    //

    Kue, small cakes, are often part of Balinese canang (offerings) left around the home on purnama (the full moon).

    This is my entry for the September IndieWeb Carnival, hosted by Sophia, on the theme “second person birds”.

    A guest reported seeing a jalak Bali, or Bali myna, one morning on our mulberry tree. These are so rare that we wondered whether it was a real sighting. The myna (Leucopsar rothschildi, also called Bali starling) is a critically endangered species. Most of them are located in the northwest corner of the island, in a national park. They are unfortunately heavily poached and sold on the black market as pets.

    Then I discovered that a breed and release facility is close, around 1.5 km away from our house. That’s “as the myna bird flies”— it’s on the other side of a deep jungle ravine. For us to visit would take around 4 hours of driving.

    But now I really want to visit.

    The snow-white, blue-masked myna became the voice for this poem. I’d very much like to see one myself, so I’m often checking the mulberry these days.

    //

    The Myna // Sang Jalak

    The Myna

    So here we are, in this
    Third World. Palm trees,
    Rice paddies, machetes.

    Doves couple on concrete walls.
    Seasalt breeze, like surface
    Fire . . . Sapphire, emerald.

    Sanctuary comes, commands
    Silence. Our mothers cut tongues
    To police. Masked,

    The myna bird speaks
    On the mulberry tree. Elsewhere,
    Ants against an elephant.

    //

    Sang Jalak

    Jadi disinilah kita,
    Di Dunia Ketiga ini. Pohon palem,
    Sawah, parang.

    Merpati bercinta di dinding beton.
    Angin laut asin, seperti permukaan
    Api . . . Safir, zamrud.

    Suaka datang, menuntut
    Keheningan. Ibu-ibu kita memotong
    Lidah ke polisi. Bertopeng—

    Jalak Bali berbicara,
    Di pohon murbei. Di tempat lain,
    Semut melawan gajah.

    //

    cocks and doves

    is the sun enough for me?
    uppity child— little Henri,
    a cockadee, chases dovelettes
    from the weeds. palest grey

    sweetmallow breasts, ruffled
    romancing on the pagar. desire
    trembles in the precarity of daylight—
    wooers, laughing, are tumbled upside-down.

    Rainbow tidbits for Henri,
    though neither of them is a hen. verily,
    unto the sun is born a luminous,
    bewilderingly beloved.

    //

    🌗

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